Friday, October 26, 2012

Lunch and the Feeling of Isolation

It's the last day for one of my colleagues. He's moving to another company and is getting married. I noticed plenty of differences from how we do lunch with the team from back home. Of course we just walked for a couple of minutes to the restaurant. Most of them had beer. Nobody was carrying a camera and everyone was just chatting and being social. Nobody was on the phone. People started to eat as soon as their food came. It was lunch as usual and people did not linger in the restaurant for more than an hour. In fact, it was ok to leave early after finishing your meal. And since it's a farewell lunch, and not a company event even if it meant 90% of the R&D team being there, we had to pay for our own meal!

Lunch was ok though I did feel a bit tipsy since I was hungry when I had my wine. Food arrived a couple of minutes later. I was amidst people who just talked. I didn't feel like talking to them though I did say a few words. It was boring. I didn't think I was productive today since upon returning to the office, we had to move desks. By the time I was already settled in, 4:30pm was looming. I was sleepy and got this headache.

I had a conference call in the morning at 9am. When I returned to my desk, people began to disappear! I thought it was too early to be leaving for lunch, then I figured, maybe they all just went to the lounge. I checked and yes, everyone was there. It was a farewell speech and best wishes to our colleague. Now why didn't I know about this? Was it because I was I was in a meeting, talking to people in the US? It wasn't even in my calendar. I really felt disconnected that time. I have a unique role hence I need to push myself to people. This is the only way for them to know me and me to know them. They seem supportive but who knows how things are going to be like. I never felt so much like an outsider, the new girl. But I'm no longer the new person. Scott just started this week and a few others are starting this November. Oh well!

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